urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238 Cuz i slipped for the last time, i dont trust myself with you... Amanda 2005-11-03T14:04:29Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:49632 2005-11-03T14:04:29Z 2005-11-03T14:04:29Z Fall out boy- Dance, Dance wow i love how even since ive graduated my life has been crazy and full of new things that have happended to me! some good some great some bad and some just the same old... its great i dint go to school... im taking a year off... workin gotta make some loot!! haha cuz i like to spend it! i would have been making more money in the end if i did go but i have all my life to realize when i wanna go and i dont like to rush into things.... hahaha well some things i guess... im crazy i swear!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:49401 2005-06-14T19:18:15Z 2005-06-14T19:18:15Z Well i did it... i gradgitated! horray for me...i now dont know what the hell im doing! i feel so lost... alone and confused... like they say the real world sucks and if this week is anyhthing like its going to be... its not going to be cool... this last week was supposed to be about me and i feel like evryone else is wrapped up in there own thing and i cant get ahead... it pretty much sucks... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:48931 2005-06-07T19:44:44Z 2005-06-07T19:44:44Z SIGH! its finally over!!! wooo today we got out caps and gown and all that jazz and had our first marching practice... witch was boring... im with cool people so im all set and it should be a good time!! i cant wait till its over! i got out of school at like 9:30 today as well as all week i beleive!! then i went tanning... i figured i need to as many times as i can b4 prom! haha then i went home! felt good to just chill for the day... i think there will be alot of chillin' when school gets out! but this week is gonna be crazy!!! thursday is the banquet, friday is prom... saturday is the big ron jeremy party!! woo and then sunday is graduation! ah.... finally! the madness ends and ill miss everyone!! the last days came to fast and i dont feel like i said bye to everyone that i wanted to but i dont think it has all sunk in yet! but it will and ill prepare myself for a big cry fest!! ooohhhh weee!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:48656 2005-04-30T14:30:18Z 2005-04-30T14:30:18Z i got a job! woo! i work at the old Amherst General! its a good time ::eye roll:: no its really not that bad! i get minimum wage plus tips i worked thursday and friday and i work again on tuesday and ALONE on Thursday! ahh! but oh well its money i think i can handle it... maybe! ill get used to it though and its not far from home and everyone there said that they'ed help me if i needed to help just call them... so i tink illget it down um just gonna miss my afternoons staying intown untill whenever... but i need MONEY!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:48617 2005-04-25T20:08:38Z 2005-04-25T20:08:38Z Sigh... 29 days of what ive done for all my life left! its some pritty crazy stuff.... i feel like my life had been just wicked shitty lately.. its wierd soo many things are changeing and i HATE change... i figure if i put things off then i wont have to do them... such as a job... money for school next year... ugh just shit... were getting our caps and gowns tommorow... thats kinda scarry! witch means like prom is comming and it looks like im probibly not going... i dont have a date... surprised? im not...UGH i feel like screaming... but i cant cuz then i cry and i hate crying... i feel kinda alone... i never have ne one there for me other that parents i always know that but i wish there was someone else for me...they say my time will come but im fucking sick of waiting... but then again i dont do ne thing to help myself!... im feel fucked up inside... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:48213 2005-04-15T14:23:28Z 2005-04-15T14:25:10Z Well today id senior skip day and i wanted to go to bar harbor like everyother senior practialy! but i didnt get home from the POLICE STATOIN untill like 11! i was brought in fro some questioning because of mandies friend porter and he ODed on sumthing and got sooo trashed and i gave him a ride to get all this booze! i never thought i would ever have to go to the police station to be questioned! it was the shittyest thing even! so there fore i slept in... good thing i wasnt going to school ne way even if i was going to bar harbor!=0/ but i made it, i told the truth even though he caut me in a lie after the gives me a big scpeal on how i need to tell the true and im nopt in trouble and neither is mandie and they needed to find out when porter took now that hes in the hospital and practialy in a coma AGAIN! i will never EVER hang out with porter again! he'll never learn untill hes 6 feet under! it wasnt a good night but i made it and it could have been worse. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:47975 2005-04-12T14:12:06Z 2005-04-12T14:12:06Z its snowing outside right now! what the F! stupid maine! i knew the weather was to good to be true!! haha but i didnt go to school ne way and left in so what the hay! haha and i still get to go in town to chill with caitlin... its johns b-day... but i dont get to have my car =0( sister has a docters appt.! oh well! haha just thought id update! haha =0) have nothing else to do! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:47777 2005-03-31T20:18:20Z 2005-03-31T20:18:20Z i love spring days! to bad it has to rain tommorow damn it! haha i love wakeing up to blue skys... birds sining... a sunny drive to school in the morning and blue sky when i get out of school... the driving bumpin the 50 cent or led zepplin as today! with the windows down just chillen!! its a good time!!=0) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:47442 2005-03-28T19:35:37Z 2005-03-28T19:35:37Z Amerie- 1 Thing Today was such an icky day! i hate rain it makes my days bad!lol oh well.. i got out at 12 today from school ::what else is new?:: drove arounf till 1:30 with mandie but what else do i do! haha i need a raise! haha she deff gets her 10$ of gas out of me! and then some! but i guess it gives me sumthing to do! people to chill with! bumpin the music and just riden! too bad we wernt burn rideing! but that what happens when yuor friend of on probation! it kinda sucks i know id be stressed out if i were her.. i couldnt handle it... im a big baby ne way! wow i need a job and since i turned 18 i feel like people have been attacking me! everyone has been pissy! maybe its just me but oh well! i think its time to grow up! but i wish thing would just change for me for the better! like have somone there to talk to to vent to and chill with to spend time with! and i dont mean like my girl friends cuz i have tons of them! i need a man in my life! haha ive waited fuckin 18 fucking years to fucking long! sucks being alone! i hate it!i need an outlet.. someone to tell all my secrates too cuz i have to many and it sucks haveing them all to myself im an open book! im up for ne thing and i hate not doing ne thing! =0/ oh well i hope something changes soon! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:47306 2005-03-21T22:15:32Z 2005-03-21T22:15:32Z Today was like an awesome day out side... i woke up to blue skys and sun... when i went to start my car this morning i could hear birds chirping! it was really awesome... i love spring weather its the best!! Easters comeing soon.. it will be the first one with out my mom! haha its not like EAsters a huge deal or ne thing... no big traditions or ne thing but still! Hey im gettin some new cloths so that will be sweet!! so yeah i got my monroe pierced! its kinda sweet! ill be glad when shes all healed and get a non gaughty ball on it.. damn silver balls. need a lil gem or something! who knows ill probibly take it out if it keeps hitting my tooth and getting caught when i yawn! kinda a pain int the arse but i like it and i went and got it done on my own with out a parent cuz i can!!! MUUAAHHHA! but they dont care anyway! so its not a big deal! thats why being 18 isnt a big deal i dont smoke butts so i dont need to buy them.. its cool to hook up a friend i guess but oh well i can buy lighters! thats a plus! u never know when you'll get bic'ed haha wow so i just rambled on a bunch about ne thing but its not like ne one reads it ne way!this high quality top news,but its there! haha whatever! ~Amanda! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:46913 2005-03-13T19:27:13Z 2005-03-13T19:27:13Z Pharelle- Frontin' sigh... well today was a good day! had some greenery... it was good! Its a Beautiful day in Maine! sunny and 35 degrees! haha its not like i went out side or ne thing but whatever its a sunday and thoes days suck but its just an ohk day! and on this day i didn have much to do so to occupy my time i decided to post cuz i dont very much... but its not like anyone reads it ne way! haha YAY Kaileys back in A-tizown!!! too excited! this means we get to hang out more! and you have a Bacholoret Pizzad of your own! im kinda ohk with school being over ... im ready! haha summers the best ne way and i cant wait! hopefully its full of sum and new things! and oh yeah! i put a new pic of me on my Icon! yay! haha never had one of them of me! haha crazy! whatever.. im done... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:46595 2005-03-07T19:45:25Z 2005-03-07T19:45:25Z Led Zepplin-The Battle Of Evermore Sigh... 3 more months of school left... i cant beleive.. in three months i will not ever go to a formal school... do the same thing that ive been doing all my life since i was five! im not going to see the same people every day... walk down the halls from class to class.... scarry... i dont know what im going to do with my self... school gets me out of the house... but Hopefully ill have a job of some sort and make money! but it kinda scares me when it comes down to it urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:46370 2005-02-26T18:40:52Z 2005-02-26T18:40:52Z Wow my party was a big piece of crap! it deff didnt go how i though it would! but it wasnt bad! i kinda didnt feel the greatest at first and smoked a little too much! but i got some cool stuff from my friends... but i was also in bed by 10:30! and i stayed out last night too and i got pulled over for the first time! i wasnt even scuured! haha it was wired! stechy mofos!lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:46155 2005-02-20T20:30:06Z 2005-02-20T20:30:06Z Submersed-hollow I had a good week! exspecialy since last week i got my wisdom teeth out on last monday and only went to school one day due to the two snowdays thursday and friday(witch im not complaining about!) this week dragged on because its the week b4 vacation!! woo no school for a week and this comming week is my birthday!! partay!!! woo! big 18 gotta do it up gangster style! haha i got a digital camera for my b-day! from my grandma!! its saweet!! ive always wanted one!! and i hope im getting my tattoo sum time! haha soon im sure!! its gonna hurt like a biach! oh well it will be worth it! yesterday i went to the ol' Fishen derby with kailey! man that sure was a hum diddly do of a good time!not!! i so will never go again! a whole lot of staning around and no one else good was down there! and way too fricken cold... im not a winter person. but first i was going to go on a long ass snowmobile trip up to Lee, Maine... but im glad i didnt they all got lost and it was colder then zips ass!!and my dad didnt get home untill 12!! screw that! but thursday will be awesome im sure! ill have to post again! since i never do ne way.. just to make heather happy i guess!! haha i hope everone has a good vacation!! woo! party it up!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:46014 2005-01-12T18:28:33Z 2005-01-12T18:28:33Z LJ sux! myspace is sooo better!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:45701 2004-11-25T19:42:49Z 2004-11-25T19:42:49Z HAPPY TURKEY DAY!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:45525 2004-10-29T19:37:13Z 2004-10-29T19:37:13Z C'mon C'mon- The Von Bondies i know know that my life is too boring to have a LJ! haha i do nothing... Today is kaileys b-day! Happy big 18 too her!!i called but her phomne must still be fucked up!no school today , that was pritty sweet!i didnt do too much i drove to eddington to get subway for lunch... watched tv blazed abit, the usual! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:45252 2004-10-03T15:53:33Z 2004-10-03T15:53:33Z joss- sone- fell in love with the boy wow senior year is deff in full mode!next week is spirit week! that aught to be fun! pagama day tomorow! thats gonna be a hum-dittyly-do of a good time!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:45014 2004-09-19T19:48:33Z 2004-09-19T19:48:33Z Fall afternoons are now feeling like fall afternoons! shitty but cool weather and mom has the wood stove going. theis afternoons last 4EVER!... ne way, i hung out with Kailey friday! that was fun! i did more with her in like 5 hours than i had done all week! very fun i might add! the game was kind of a um.. downer i guess you could say! we shouldnt have gone but it was fun b4 we went! haha oh well, we should hang out like that more! it was a good time! haha urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:44678 2004-09-02T20:36:33Z 2004-09-02T20:36:33Z well today was the first day at big brewer high! it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be but its school how great can it be!? oh well... my classes are ohk and shit but not as fun as hangin out with my friends during the day! but oh well i'll live and have to get over it! only like 178 days till i graduate!!! wooo! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:44533 2004-08-31T17:36:35Z 2004-08-31T17:36:35Z Terror Squad - Lean Back ugh school is about to start in 2 DAYS!! how shitty is that!?! its gonna suck i just know it, i feel like im going to be all alone! all my friends have either gone to Act or another school and now i have to practicaly make all new friends andstupid shit like that , lunch is gonna suck like no other! i wish it was open campus! Senior year is supposed to be the best year but its not looking so good for me... oh well i will probibly live i imagine i always lived out ne thing else that happend, my first 3 years of high school were good so i guess i should be in revirse and have my seinor year suck, well atleast i wont be distracted by friends and will have more time for my school work... witch is gay and ill turn back into a fucking smart ass staright edge again! i WONT let that happen to me, im finnaly happy with what i am now and who i am and i hope that doesnt change! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:44126 2004-08-23T18:49:42Z 2004-08-23T18:49:42Z well i have been doing alot of "work" lately, still working on the log trailer i made 70 $ last week witch is all gone except 9.00and i made 60$ this weekend working for my grandmother, and i was to get 20 hours this week so i can make 200 dollars then i want to go to Old Navy and blow it all! i think im going with kailey, i havent called her yet but she wanted to go , but Caitlin and misty asked to go to but i think id like to go with kailey and she asked first but if she cant then i dont know what im gonna do , but all i know is that im goiong b4 school starts weather i go by myslef or not! haha that my new favorite store since 2 years ago! Well i need a shower ive been sanding all day and i feel gross so i think im gonna go do that!... L8R! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:43786 2004-08-16T15:02:57Z 2004-08-16T15:02:57Z wow ive done alot of nothing lately! jus chillen, but we are going to OOB like next week and then shopping @ old navy for school! i havent gotten anything yet for school, we put a lay~a~way on a while ago but thats just the little stuff not any clothes! ugh i kinda dont want school to start again! but i kinda do! oh well i still need a job, ive been doing little things but i am painting my dads log trailer for like 10 bucks an hour! but i havent yet i hope this week!he needs to get it in our driveway so i can reach it with the hose! oh well i feel like i havent seen caitlin ina while! we need to hang out soon! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:43608 2004-08-11T20:34:41Z 2004-08-11T20:34:41Z Mobb Deep- Got it Twisted yesterday i went to beach Hill with Kailey and went swimming! the water was Awesome! ive never felt that water so warm! it was great. we stayed almost all day, Kailey left at 3:20 to go to work and misty met us down there and she stayed with me, then i headed home and got changed, went to mistys then town to hang out with Caitlin and john. that was fun, same old same old shit! haha oh well i like keeping busy! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandigirl238:43283 2004-08-08T17:06:43Z 2004-08-08T17:06:43Z ive been really busy lately and doing a bunch of stuff but its been awesome! i went to the fair with Caitlin, John and misty, that was a good time. and i went swimming with them also i dont know if ive written about that or not but it was pretty fun but not workth walking 2 miles up hill on un even granet! in a skirt! haha oh well i had a good time, lots of cute boys!! =0) today i went to the annual fire department BBQ. ive never been b4 but mom and nicky have to bee there so we went and we are gonig back to win sum shit!!! i cant wait i hope i win sum money! im too poor! haha i still need a job, and i know that i dont want to work with food or Kids! ugh yah well atleast the kid story provides sum entertainment for Kailey! haha oh well, ugh 1 month untill school starts again! =0( its gonna suck! all my friends are leaving me! oh well, i hope i dont turn into a goody 2 shoes again like i was freshman year! Senior year is supposed to be fun, but the people i have fun with are leaving me! i guess ill have to suck it up and deal!